Thanks to my brother who got me there and to my mom who made him his chopper which got me there!

 

Finally, you get a bit of a rhythm going; you get used to the jerks from side to side.  Thats when they throw the loopty-loop in your way.

Your entire world is flipped upside down. Yes is no, wrong is right, then is now. You get the picture. Suddenly, you're not on the fast track anymore. Instead you're going in a different direction.

Finally, its all over and you don't know whether to pass out or get sick. Either way you're left breathless and wondering why the hell you got on the ride in the first place.

Today at 4:30 I lost my last remaining grandmother. This poem and blog I dedicate to her.

 

"REMEMBER"

 

REMEMBER me when I am gone away,

Gone far away into the silent land;

When you can no more hold me by the hand,

Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.

Remember me when no more day by day

You tell me of our future that you plann'd:

Only remember me; you understand

It will be late to counsel then or pray.

Yet if you should forget me for a while

And afterwards remember, do not grieve:

For if the darkness and corruption leave

A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,

Better by far you should forget and smile

Than that you should remember and be sad.

 

Christina Rossetti

Sue Thomas FBEye fan fiction, but can really be read as is without knowledge of characters.
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I stand here on one of the worst, and now best, days of my life. It was on this day, ten years ago exactly, that my life was changed forever. For worse, better, sometimes…most times I can't tell. I hate myself sometimes; I hate her; heck, I even hate God some moments. Even a full decade later, I still don’t understand. Why? That question haunts me at times. But at moments like this, standing before you, what haunts me most is the fact that it doesn’t haunt me enough. Does that make sense? I see you smile and shake your head telling me that no it doesn’t make sense, but its okay because you expect it from me. It hurts that I know you so well, even now, that I can see your replies without you physically here.

But I came here for a reason, and I can't stay long. I apologize for that but I know you understand. I can't leave her, no, them alone for long. I thought you’d like to know that we named him after you. I know you’d have done the same if the situations were reversed. Although I think if we traded places, like I used to wish so often, nothing much would be the same.

Except her.

You’d have married your girl. Only I married your girl. I like to think, though, that you approve of us. I know you like to see her happy. And happy she is. We both are.

Well, I better go. I want to get back to Sue and the baby. I’ll try to get back soon. Bye.

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A figure, with hunched shoulders, walked off, dissolving back into the night, leaving behind the best of friends.

Jack S. Hudson

1969-2007

Beloved Son, Friend, Protector

You won’t be forgotten Sparky

I wrote this for the last day of my Education class this semester. You know the class you have that you are never the same after and have a great impact on your life? Well, this was one of them. So I wrote this to remind everyone in our class about the great semester we had. And now I want to share it with you. Enjoy!!!

The Saga of EDU 230

From a looming portfolio to drama from home, EDU 230 was in a class all its own. A class that is supposed to teach about teaching ends up teaching so much more and forging friendships.

The Players

        1)        Dr. Louise

¤The esteemed professor with enough antecedents to fill up the entire semester

        2)        Lindsey

¤A young woman with a southern drawl that battles cancer and an evil boyfriend

        3)        Crystal G.

¤A young preacher’s wife with a loud mouth and good humor

        4)        Sumer

¤A woman balancing on the edge— with a husband shipped off and kids to raise alone

        5)        Holli

¤ A good ol’ country girl that raised her three brothers by herself, while hunting to her heart’s content

        6)        Crystal S.

¤The quiet soon-to-be mother who waits to speak until she has something to say

        7)        Charnina

¤The outspoken black woman who is not afraid to speak her mind, for ill or naught

        8)        Shawn

¤The single, hard-working mother with a constant smile on her face

        9)        Angie

¤The over-achiever—the first to turn in everything— with bits of advice to share with all

      10)      Jessica

¤The bubbly girl, ready with a laugh, and totally devoted to her nieces

      11)      Gertha

¤The older black woman, always with a “Hello” and dependable for any help you need

      12)      Victoria

¤The sweet girl with an equally sweet smile and understanding ear

      13)      Patrice

¤The other young mother-to-be—a young black girl, while chronically late, is made to teach

      14)      Jennifer

¤The quiet, withdrawn girl who keeps to herself, but has her chatty moments

A Day in the Life of EDU 230

The setting: A classroom in Dyersburg State Community College Jimmy Nafieh Center

7:30 am-An empty classroom

The lights turn on and in walks an older black lady, complete with rolling backpack. The room is quiet, except the hum of the heater/air conditioner. A perfect place to study. The woman, Gertha, pulls out her textbook and paper and works quietly.

7:40 am

Into the classroom walks a younger, larger girl lugging a notebook, textbook, and novel. She drops her stuff on the table/desk with a sigh.

Gertha: Good morning.

Jennifer: Good morning (tiredly)

Jennifer walks back out.

A minute or so later she walks back in, this time with a soda in hand. She sets it down, walks around the table and sits herself in her spot in the classroom. She promptly drops her head in her hand and begins to doze, in wait for the beginning of class.

7:45 am

In walks a third girl, dressed in bright colors with a smile on her face.

Gertha: Hello

Victoria: Hello

Jennifer: Hey

8 am

Angie and Jessica walk in—brown and blonde haired respectively— followed closely by Crystal S.-a young girl with a small bump for her belly. A steady trickle follows: Shawn- a blonde lady, Holli- a younger brunette with camo on, a huffing and puffing Charnina and rolling backpack (she had to get her kids on the bus and herself to school in a short amount of time, can you blame her?), Sumer-a tall brunette, and finally Crystal G.-a brown-haired girl with an over-the-shoulder bag.

Among the trickle of students came Dr. Louise. She is an older lady with white hair and a kind disposition. She had come in and set her things down before promptly smacking herself upside the head—she had forgotten something.

Dr. Louise: I’ll be right back.

8:05 am

Just about everyone was there. Dr. Louisehad settled her things, taken roll and was just about to begin the lesson, when Lindsey arrives (a young blonde, dressed quite nice today).

Dr. Louise: Good morning, sunshine!

Lindsey: Good mornin’.

Lindsey takes her seat and class begins. The topic of the day varies from day to day: diversity, history, philosophy, etc. Before class can get really going, Patrice comes in. (She’s a young black girl with an obviously pregnant belly.)

Dr. Louise: Good morning, Little Bit.

Patrice: Good morning.

And class goes on. Class goes on until, undoubtedly, someone pipes up

XXX: Mrs. Louise. You will NOT believe what happened!

And off we go. (See “The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly for more information)

The result of whatever story being told is the class rolling with laughter, cooing with sympathy, or vehement agreement. Then, usually, someone else will chime in

YYYY: I know! (Or possibly, ‘You think that’s bad?) Listen to this!

And off we go again.

Eventually, Dr. Louisewill get the class back on track (of course half of the class is wasted by now) and class commences until Dr. Louise says

Dr. Louise: One time [INSERT Melody or my mother here]…

And now it is story-time for Dr. Louise. One antecedent leads to another and to another until Mr. Bob decides to wander in the room. Mr. Bob is Dr. Louise's husband and teaches next door. If the class hold over at least one minute (although to be fair, it always holds over), Mr. Bob wanders in with a banana. He always has a banana and always shares it with his wife (Ok all together now: “AWWWW!”).

Mr. Bob’s presence means that time is up and the students begin to pack up their things. Before any one leaves though, Dr. Louise speaks one last time.

Dr. Louise: I will see you all next time. Have a very bless-ed day!

A smattering of “You too” ‘s follow as students begin to take their leave. Some days a student or two will stay behind to chat with Dr. Louise, but soon the classroom is empty once more.

The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly

The Good

The time(s) that…

– Everyone teased Angie about being a “good-two-shoes”

– The class did their lessons. What’s more fun than reverting to kindergarteners and first graders? (Well, telling a college student to put her name on the board is pretty fun…)

– Lindsey told us over the phone (the not-so-good part being her getting a flat) that she had gotten into the program

– Sumer’s husband got leave and she got to see him

– Crystal S. told us “It’s a girl!”

– “Bets” were taken on Patrice’s delivery date.

– Gertha was praised over her portfolio (100!!)

– Holli piped up with a smart-aleck or sarcastic remark

– Mr. Bob came in wondering what all the roaring laughter was about—prompting more laughter

– Dr. Smith “subbed” for Dr. Louise and was almost brought to tears of pride for her mama

– Patrice refused to give her final because she refused to have her baby before finals

The Bad

The time(s) that…

– Sumer was kicked out of class to make her go to the Emergency Room

– Dr. Louise battled plagiarism in the Article Reviews

– Jennifer busted her elbow and ankle falling down the stairs

– Lindsey saw her boyfriend for cheating (Plus side: she sliced his tires!)

– Sumer’s husband was shipped off

– Victoria’s grandfather got sick and died

– Jessica and Angie told about the observation they did where a teacher slapped a student

– Crystal G. was blasted by Dr. Louise (Well, anytime that anyone was blasted)

– Dr. Louise was absent due to kidney stones (OUCH!)

– Shawn had problems with her son and the police (??)

The Ugly

The time that…

– Angie and Charnina about had a smack-down in class. Tempers flared; words were misunderstood; Charnina left; Angie stewed; the class was left in a room of tension that a butter knife (a plastic one) could cut

* No persons were harmed in the making of this “documentary.”

** No offense was meant in any words or implications made by the author of this “documentary.” Its all in good fun,

   people.

One down, four to go!!! Yes, I am talking about finals. I just finished my Comp 2 final an hour or so ago. It was easy and I am not really worried. I have Education, Art, History, and Biology to go. Education- not worried (we had a take home test!). Art- eh, but not really caring here. History- worried but not panicky. Biology- worried, but I'll do okay. Tomorrow I have Education and Art.
Today was bittersweet for me. I loved my English class and my Englsih professor. I wish I could have her for the rest of my English days. Lol. I was the last one to finish. I gave my professor a hug and left. And now its done!

www.blogthings.com is an awesome website and I love to waste time there. So I thought I would post my results here!

Your Life is 46% Off Track

Right now, you're taking things one day at a time. Some things are going well, but you can't help but wonder if you're getting the most out of life. It's time for you to slow down and reflect a little. You can change your life - but it's up to you!

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

There's a 58% Chance That You Need Therapy

If you think you need therapy, you probably do. But there's a good chance you don't. Like everyone else, you have your fair share of problems. And unlike most people, you're fairly good at solving them yourself.

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from The Princess Bride

"This is true love - you think this happens every day?"

Your Inner European is Italian!

Passionate and colorful. You show the world what culture really is.

Your Mouth is a Little Big

You're not a total tell all, but you don't hide who you are either. You've struck a good balance between discretion and sharing. People know you fairly well, at least on a superficial level. But you save your most revealing secrets for your best friend... or no one!

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Your EQ is 73

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

You Were a Cougar

You are a great leader who has dominance without ego. You are wickedly cunning and off the scale confident.

Your Taste in Music:

90's Rock: Highest Influence Classic Rock: Highest Influence 80's Rock: High Influence Adult Alternative: High Influence Alternative Rock: High Influence

You Are 68% Shy

You are a very shy person, and it has started to impact your life in a negative way. If you can avoid human contact, you usually do. And as a result, you miss out on a lot.

You are "Sleeping"

You Belong in the USA

Sweet! People either love you or hate you And you really don't care what anyone thinks Big and bold, you do things your way

Your 2005 Song Is

Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz "Love forever love is free. Let's turn forever you and me." In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain.

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Eagle Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale You are active, a challenger, and optimistic. Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are compassionate, caring, and soothing. You like other people to depend on you... In fact, you don't feel right unless you are helping someone out. Underneath it all, you feel the burden of everyone's problems. Without your guidance, you fear that many people's worlds would fall apart. You like to feel in charge, even if it brings you a lot of stress.

You Are Batman

Billionaire playboy by day. Saving the world by night. And you're not even a true superhero. Just someone with a lot of expensive toys!

Your Sloth Quotient: 48%

You're definitely lazier than the average person, but you're able to live a somewhat normal life. All your life needs is a little more effort and variety, and you might see that doing hard things is actually fun!

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and expressive, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

You Should Rule Mercury

Close to sun, Mercury has very long days - and is rarely visible to the rest of the solar system. You are perfect to rule Mercury, because you live for the present - and can truly enjoy a day that goes on forever. Like Mercury, you are quick and elusive. Your wit is outstanding, and you can win any verbal sparring match. Some people see you as superficial, but in truth, you just play many roles and have many interests. A great manipulator, you usually get what you want from people. And they're happy to give it to you.

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

You are